Going on

 I do sometime just think of giving up this blog, it is more difficult than when I set it up but it is somewhere I can say that I can’t say out loud.

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Bit sad

 I am a bit sad, my friend Bev messaged to say it was the birthday of one of the friends we sailed with years ago and her phone calls didn’t go through and she feared the worst. I said I would look into it and of course it was the worst not only was he dead but he had taken his own life. I felt sad telling Bev this because I know she had been concerned about him and had tried to help after he lost his wife. He had lost his wife, his mother then his sister in a few short years then been diagnosed with cancer. I suspect at the inquest they said he took his own life because the balance of his mind was disturbed. He was depressed he had lost everything that was important in his life and was facing cancer alone, okay maybe friends would rally round but it wasn’t something he wanted. He was an intelligent bloke, had, had a brilliant life and came to the conclusion that he didn’t want to go on.  I think he had a clear mind when he decided on his own end. Maybe it is a shame that he didn’t have a family or something that makes you want to go on but I respect his decision. You will not be forgotten by your friends RIP Peter.

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